i've just changed my blogskin. this one has a sad look. kinda. and this is exactly how i'm feeling now. sigh. the picture shows someone who sees someone else in the mirror. at this point, i ask myself, am i like this too? sigh. maybe i am. haha. maybe now you understand why i choose this skin. mainly 2 reasons. the first is i'm not very happy. i know i'm weird. cos when any of my close friend starts feeling very sad or whatsoever, i get affected. this is very bad. i know it. and now i'm affected by my bro. he is very upset now and i'm affected. sigh. haha. i always try to make my friends happy again. but clearly i'm not suceeding in my bor's case. sigh. the second reason of cos is my church. this entry would most probably be read by only MGrians. Why? cos' i'm not close to any one of the teenz in my church at all. sigh. this is terrible. and all MG peeps would know i'm rather noisy and tend to crap alot. but in church... i'm someone different. it's as though my mouth is glued together. i simply do not open my mouth to talk to peeps there. of cos', i've always been like this. the other party must take the initiative to talk 1st or i'll just keep quiet. that's why i thank God that all the MG peeps are very friendly, that's why i'm not a loner in school. but in church.. haha.. let's say i'm the loner of loners.. it's like a double life. and i hate it. but then, i've tried taking the initiative to talk. but it always doesn't work out right. sigh. sigh. of cos' i'm not schizofraniac. (that how you spell it?) but it feels that way huh. i know that i'm supposed to make strong friendship bonds with the peeps in church but that's just now happening... why... why can't i have friends in church like i do in school?? =(